An electrical fire near Towson’s water pumping station this past week, shut down numerous schools, businesses and left a number of area residents without water.
It happens frequently enough that it really shouldn’t come as too big a surprise—not an electrical fire knocking out the water supply, but a day undone by some unforeseen occurence. The intrusive unexpected dams the expected flow of the day, diverts your schedule, sweeps your to-do lists away, and what you were expecting to get done just swirls off.
And there are times, I grin, roll with it, enjoy it, find the gifts within it—remembering the first time I heard Greg Brown’s “Spring Wind,” with the wonderful line: “a spring wind blew my list of things to do away.”
Other times though, I am undone—proceed through the day with a chronic low-grade frustration and frequent spikes of outrage.
I’m not sure what makes the difference: the mood I’m in to begin with? the stress I’m under to get things done?
Makes me think on God’s name for self: “I am that I am.” A consistency of being through all circumstance. I am not who I am in this situation or that one. I am that I am. Not untouched by circumstance, but not determined by it either.
Then, I was struck by the creation story—those six days of creation, and six times, Scripture records that God saw that it (what God had done) was good. Once each day, we tend to think. That’s the appropriate, celebrative end of each day of creation, isn’t it? But, in fact, on day one, the “it was good” blessing falls not at the conclusion of the day, but within it—not a blessing on all that was done that day, but on part of it: the creation of light. The second day doesn’t get an “it was good” at all, while the third day gets two! The fourth, fifth and sixth each get the expected “it was good” at the end of the day.
So, there are days when only some of what you do feels good, some days several things, some days nothing, some days everything.
The blessing of God is not some perfect equanimity—not some absolute consistency of feeling, but the assurance that in the end, God is good—very good indeed.